Am I My Worst Critic?

Quote of the Day: It’s not your job to like me, it’s mine. – Byron Katie.

Hello My Curvy Divas, Do I look fat in this? Can you see my stomach in this shirt? Omg, my butt looks huge in this dress. I dont wanna go out, I have NOTHING to wear. Lord if you just help me lose about 20lbs I wont ask for nothing else. Girl I'm about to start eating right, I'm trying to get my body right for summer. She look a mess in that, she too fat to wear that. Are you guilty of saying at least one or two of these statements? I know I am.

 As women in general we are super judgemental, overly critical, and plain right harsh when it comes to ourselves and others. The best way to detect a self loathing woman is to watch her try on clothes. I guarantee, nothing will ever fit her right,she will always blame her body, and put herself down. I know, I've been there too. An epiphany came for me about 6 months ago, I went on a diet and lost a significant amount of weight. I had not reached my goal but was well on my way and the results were noticeable. Something began to happen as I lost weight, besides the fact that my old clothing was falling off, I began to feel uncomfortable. It was not until I gained most of the weight back that I realized I had grown comfortable in my size 18/20. It was also then that I realized that I did not think I deserved to be smaller. My AHA moment came when I learned that in order to be successful with my weight loss goal or esteem goals, I had to learn to LOVE myself at whatever weight I was. (insert sigh here) We always feel that things will be better WHEN we lose the weight.

Its crazy because I always believed I loved myself because I always treated myself to nice things, traveled, and indulged in whatever my heart desired but I was mistaken. The new love I have for myself is patient when I make mistakes, kind when I try on something unflattering, and always there when faced with adversity. My new love is no longer a feeling but an act of kindness that I extend to myself continuously through encouraging words and surrounding myself with people who are positive and supportive.

  Today I present you with a challenge. The challenge to love yourself despite your circumstance,looks, weight,or current self esteem. It may not be easy but honey, you are WORTH it. Today's photos are not my most flattering by some people's standards but I dont care because I love me and this plus size body is BEAUTIFUL!

If you cant love yourself, how the hell you gonna love anybody else? Can I get an Amen?- Rupaul

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Sincerely, Sinnamon

p.s. Diva of the week will be back next week. I have decided on next week's diva but keep your submissions coming for future blog entries.

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